And it's money
I like to Instag stalk random people with much better lives than I do
I see all the food they eat, all the concerts they go to, all the clothes they buy, how classy they look and just everything I want
I want money
Money money money
I want my money
I want my mum to not be a bitch and take my money away from me
I want another job
A nice one, nice staff (please)
Close together
Flexible hours
A boss who I'm close with and loves me
I want more piercings
I really want to travel
I want to taste great food and not feel cold when it rains harder than ever
I want $35 eyeliner printed on my eyelids making me look fierce
I want naked urban decay on my eyelids
I want my eyebrows to be on point
I want a tight wrap skirt that looks great on me while I'm in the club swaying my hips to a great song and my man hanging behind me
I want liquor and never chase that
I want to get to UNi hungover with a large bottle of water with lemon slices
I want it to be hot
I want the sun on my face
I want to smile like I used to
I want a dog to hold
I want a plain simple room I can take plain simple selfies on
I want to read books with cool covers
I want $100 jackets that actually keep me warm
I want to go gym in non slip or too short wear, I want to pull myself up all proper
I want my abs to shine and back to FLEXZXXXXX
MOST OF ALL I want my thighs to slim down, remain thick but tighter and stronger
I want to dip on the dance floor with no struggle
I want the boys at the gym to look at me and see dedication and a sweet ass they wish they tapped during high school
(And never will!)
I want to hear down the grapevine how damn fly I am
I already like the fact that people from highschool know I'm different
Telling me about things then saying "but that's not your thing is it?"
Like yeah nigga I have a thing that no one can touch
I want to be close with my mum again
I want her to look pretty
I want her to take selfies with me
I want her to feel pretty
I want to not have my new home a mess
I don't want a leaky roof
Noisy neighbours
And no where to park
I want a garden
As previously stated
A dog
A pantry
Carpet
Garage
No over crowded rooms with things we don't need
Family portraits
I want things to not feel so messy
You know who I love? Jens
I don't know why
She makes you feel so special for being who you are
Why is that so hard for people to do?
I guess I do the same thing so I can't talk
Jess I totally understand what you mean with girlfriends
I need some girlfriends
I'm so glad I have my UNi mates, I was a bit hesitant about them all being girls but the more I look back at it the more i appreciate
I saw the worst in Sandy and Jens
But they are the kindest most loyal girls you could ever meet
Weird isn't it?
Tbh I really don't know what I am anymore, have I finally figured out what has been wrong with me this whole time?
I think lately I've been feeling so solid that I lost what I was. A girl in pieces.
I think I've been acting too mature
I need to let go
I need to find who I am again
I need to find it in jess and Collin
I need to find it in bobs
I need to find it in huynh and Eeh
I need to find it in Jens
I need to find it in everyone that used to look at my little pieces
Heck I need mother fuckin Chet back in my life, dear JESUS I must see Jahmika, Joanna
I think we need to see our past selves to really see our present a future self
Not a bad vomit of words for someone awake at 2 am aye?