what does my dream future look like?

my dream future, where even and whenever it is

looks like me, in the sun relaxing. My skin is clear and my eye bags are gone. imm not bloated or is uncomfortable in the belly.

i have few clothes in my closet. Just things i love. I am away from home with peanut by my side. My house is only filled with necessary furniture and plants. No rubbish, no mess, no clutter.

it smells nice in my future. Its still hard. I still cry, i still get depressed. But my mind is clear and i can hope. I still have hope.

Thats my dream future. I hope its close.

i also want gold, gold rings, gold necklace

30 by 30

1. Live in another country (even suburb is good enough for me)
2. Go on a solo road trip
3. (this is a stretch) get married (lel)
4. Have a side hustle
5. Practice something healthy consistently (whether that may mean dance or yoga or pole or meditating)
6. Learn how to cook ox tail soup from mum
7. Make a cohesive youtube video
8. Stay at Rosewood in Mexico
9. Move out

this is all i can think of so far

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