Fear

One of my largest fears is that I'm going to grow into depression. Sometimes I get these spouts of anxiety and sadness that takes over my body and my personality but hopefully it won't take over my life. I've read and was told being depressed is not being able to get out of bed at all due to a lack to motivation and a feeling of hopelessness. I can still get out of bed. But I cry more often.

I've seen what these mental issues do to you and it isn't pleasant at all. It is nowhere near what you will believe. That's why I'm so afraid that what if I am placed in that situation? I've never been this anxious or depressed before...

I can't help but feel that sometimes I am too sensitive for this world. 

I know it's an irrational and unlikely fear.
But it's hard not to think about it. 


Do you remember the time

Is it Twenty-Fifteen Already?
Oh What a year.




Huynh became 19 and i spent the whole night crying and supporting a poor eyebrow game, what was i thinking?


The moon was bright asf and drew and i wanted to be tourist 


2 xmas gifts on the beach, a lot of dead seagulls that day


beach again, the sky was paradise, that is why i love coogee, the sunsets there are always spot on


You dont wanna know


Terrigal!! 


matching flowers


Valentines Day in Canberra, all i remember was that it was cold and patchy


first time flip out


first time model


 Mars Chan


good times, that was a great yet hectic night, i think that was the angriest ive ever been


poppin'


STIFI, v cheap and v great night


19


nineteen bitch


more nineteens and more crying


being andrews muse


first time Marys YASSSSS!


taking eeh to see jeson deulo, nothing was better then the disappointment in his face


jks 


shitty uts party, purple elephant and disrespectful white people but fun white people who were cute and well dressed


fashion frenzy with my mum which was weird LOL, i look cute there :$


Made Tacos with the boys, idk why thats here but it made me happy i guess


90's bitch


got my eyebrows done for the first time... i didnt like it


over my dead body! Chet would be by far the best person i saw live! mainly because he provides new material, it was magical and just shined talent


Diki's party, i miss her dearly and i wish i was sober for that night damn lol


looking for dikis house and got lost in the amazon whoops!


mandarin picking like wuuutttt this picture is spot on


drunk bae, nothing better than being sober and watching andrew throw up on grass and dance like a russian


20!


professional caking


Fish finger kinda night

that one time we saw a wild kangaroo and watched the stars


splendour in the selfie 


luv dis


Exploring and finding the dune, im so glad hes in my life


Work party minus all the staff except me, sam and jess, oh and plus all of sams friends and friends of friends


First time settling into my new room


breaking into my new home and dancing whilst drunk asf


getting our flame on whilst getting sober


Listen out the very next day


And watching and being reunited with Dan the day after that


Renting a boat and finding our haven 


Driving the boat and killing my friends


work party again, oh sam



First time Ramen Burger


First time Magnum w/ rose petals


Wickedddd


Theatre ;), getting to work in a theatre space rules


awks outfit clash :/


no, we were the sculptures by the sea~ we are art and beauty 


Surprise Nancy and tmi with Julie


Being andrews muse and it actually being successful


Peace in my gesture and Peace in my mind


I felt young again (i know i am but you get the point)


I felt the beauty in the world


I felt my need to be healthy


I felt connected


I felt loved


i felt loveddd ;)


Now i feel a new yeear


New experiences


More smiles


More beauty

More Music


and more laughter







Although i saw pain and death in the new year, i also see myself growing

i hate growing, it scares me

happy belated 2015 post, i love you