just keep on blogging

so today huh, i finally hit 6000 views which is pretty neat

i dont know why i chose to celebrate that particular number but bobby did so im copying him

hiya Cass how are you?

im blooming good

well

haha not really as you can tell by my previous post and maybe tweets, if you follow my twitter

we of course you do, youre just a figment of my imagination cass

im thinking of writing a super secret blog, with a whole new url and email and stuff, creating a person out of nowhere you know?

so yeah

ill just tell you about my day cass

i woke up (surprise)

but! at a late hour-ish, like 11? jess asked me if i wanted to go eat out and i was like, yeah- no

hells yeah, - thats more like it

anywho

we decided to go to dannys house

and he was like lets make shit and shit woo

and i was like yea k

and we went to pick up my bro


but somehow eeh ended up picking me up

and like bobby appeared and everyone was at my house at that point

as displayed here

and we made jello shots

then collin came

then we made filling or something

then jess left

then collin and i began carving an apple or something

then we went to ems house and i brought marcel

then i left

and i had a shower

and sat in my bed naked for like 100000 hours which was lovely

then i got up

made myself a cuppa cause i realised i was feeling under the weather

im sick yay, a day before the gatsby party,

hey lets play past and present

ill write what i think might happen at the party and then ill write a post on what actually happened

ill get my outfit so last min i come late to the party

im gonna get cold and ruin my outfit with jumpers

im gonna bring too much supplies to ems house

i try to get crazy drunk but end up chickening out when i get a bit cuddly 

admit a secret or 2 to someone totally random

leave early (12?) and get angry at my rents

cop a lecture, then sleep

man my expectations are rather crappy

but i feel rather crappy

but no need to worry cass, I'm just in a dry spill, ill get happy soon, im sure of it. i just need to figure somethings out

hugs and kisses

Miss Badass of the year

I got a little money and i got a little fame

Still smoking everyday to ease my mind and maintain

Addicted to success all i wanna do is gain

Drug with ambition i can feel it in my veins

-Domo Genesis - Boss' Life      (if you have the correct speakers the bass is super rad, and this song is so super chill i love it, ive been getting into rnb and rap its crazy but awesome) 

I'm Scared

Manic Depression

i cant handle things right now

i am confused and angry and nothing thinking straight and i want to make horrible mistakes for such selfish fucking reasons

bobby i read your recent bloog post and i cant handle it, i wanna hold your hand and i am sorry for how you feel, i want you to follow your dreams but i know how parents are

a woman in a store said there was something wrong with me today cause i didnt acknowledge her

then i received a friendly lecture, the ones you listen to cause she is an elder, no other reason

i didnt mind even though i was half asleep and she picked up on it and she said there was something wrong with me, but not in a mean way

more like she pointed out that i have shadows, demons even, in my head

and i guess its true

i am confused and happy but sad and i over think so much i dont think things through if that makes sense

you know

like i want to take things delicatly and step by step trying not to let it explode in my face then out of nowhere i decide to do something completely stupid and it hits me in the face with a full on pain and it comes back to me now and leaves me in a spiral of depression cause i dont think things through

thats what the woman said to me

i think to much

she can see it

probably in my eyes

i need something to calm me down

something inside me is building up and i cant reach it, release it

im just so angry and i dont know why

i havent made a blog post like this in a while

maybe cause i havent been feeling like this in a while


why does it hit now??
is it cause uni is over for now and now i cant keep myself distracted from my demons?

ugh sometimes i just hate myself

cause i cant help who i am

you know those times i keep talking and i say things during real horrible times

so i just do things

why do i do things

why do i say things

i just wish someone has the balls to ask me whats wrong

i want to keep more secrets, that was my flaw that i wanted to someone heal this year

it was in my new years resolutions

so was "be creative"

but we both know that those things wont be resloved or whatever

i jsut half asleep, drownsy and sad

empty even


why cant i think

i hate this i need to learn that people have emotions and ugh its not about me and i just need this but i dont need this then i get angry then i get sad then i want to punch things and ugh ugh ughugh gugnbroonvnanjanegklnklnarklngerak

yeah

ok

try and make myself happy

i love how pumped jess and collin are on whatsapp right now

im listening to riptide to make myself happy

and staring at this picture or mr mac i took today

well, yesterday apparently


ok im happy now

my friends are making me smile

someone else is making me smile

*subtle grin*

y7eah i is gon end my post here

 

O yea I almost 4got to mention I went 2 eat out wit tian. 

Whoa, won't you let me hold you, dear ? 
I want to just put my arms around ya, like the circles going 'round the 
Sun. 
Let me hold you daddy, at least until the morning comes.- Janis Joplin - I need a man to love 

:)

6000000000000000 days in 1

FUck. so, im kind of a shit head Cass... and this became like 5000000000 post in one, so here is a bulk full of random days and shit man fuck




























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"Good old hsc days"

lets discuss cabra library


i went to the lib and met yavin

eventually we hear noises from the side and they installed vending and a coffee machine

which is really good cause in the vending machine there is a 4g usb for $4 and that is just plain genius!

like bobina

no wait

he is..



HOMOGENUIS

thankkk you and back to the story

so i awkwardly stood there as the librarians marvelled at their new toy and one looks at me and asks if i want one

fuck yeah i did and then i felt like they forgot me so i sat back in my seat and the librarian just walked up to me and was like

do you still want your coffee
adn and i got it for free! i was like "do i pay???" and she was just like "ITS ON THE HOUSE!"

yum yum it was like chcolate coffee water mmm

after i grabbed steak with yavin and drew which was nice

came back

saw bobby and i decided to sit with him!

it was real fun cause eventually collin, emily and jess joined with slight popups of danny and drew so most of the kik were at the lib so that was real neato

i really missed you guys ahaha

cant wait until we finish exams

next day

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"How not to study featuring bobby"

So i went city with bobby the next day, you can kinda read about it on this (xXx)

He kinda explains things and I'm throwing you a bone bobby you better advertise me in your blog you slagggg


yeah and heres a photo

yeah it was night time cause im rebellious 

Here's one of us on a train f-yeah

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"Hey it's my day with jay part 2"

The morning was very. Sad. I really hoped that he didnt notice I cried.

He and I have been talking for a while and well. We both needed to he out the house cause we became lazy bums sleeping at 3-5 am in the morning just skyping about nothing practically just linking each other reddit an tumbler nonsense!!

So yeah I was like you wanna study with me and he was like I can't but I'm free on the weekends an I was like ok cool and he was like yeah but I don't wanna study

So we chillaxed in the city cause he lives I chatswood which is far far away from me and city was just a meet up

Turnabout his line got track work! 

loseerrrrrrr

Bury each, he doesn't have a phone so we had to carefully plan the times we were gonna meet up at quay.

So we

So we chillaxed in the city cause he lives in chats wood which is far far away from me and city was just a meet up

Turns out his line got track work! Loserrrrr

But yeah, he doesn't have a phone so we had to carefully plan the times we were gonna meet up at quay which let I meeting and wynyard which didn't make sense cause I didn't know the platforms and it was just gobble de goop and we thought central but we felt like rebels cause central is mundane and oh so timid cause ugh memories of Uni EW am I right?

So there I was half asleep and just got a train off quay and he is just standing there. We decide to go customs so I can show him doctor who books, I don't really notice how quiet that library was until he was there LOL

So we leave to go pancakes on the rocks and getting kinda lost. Finding a massive boat on the rocks but we eventually found it so that's good. 

we got in cause there was only 2 people (obviously)

go in, got food, told the waitress we already ordered when really we didnt and i felt like a retard for like a minute

i ordered this bad boy

and jay ordered this

the bacon was amazing and there was this one couple beside us rubbing each others legs and staring into each others eyes which was very awkward

But yeah yeah ywah

Oh em gee, he watched the it crowd right and made jokes and I was like 

"The only times I don't share food (cause I was eating his bacon) is at a tapas restrant" 

And he was like 

"At a messyjoes" 

Fucken genius 

So yeah

after being packed with pancakes and bacon we made out way out of the rocks finding a market near by and we decided to explore 

Starring at weird wired dolls who looked like the spirit of Jazz and so called fossils and wooden toys and there was this one couple, the man was scottish and j does a rather radical Scottish accent and his Asian wife and their adorable daughter they were cool

We just kinda explored that area and some markets wouldn't allow photos which was shite but we eventually walked into someone's apartment building cause it was just open and then

We found totally swingin Victorian buildings and everything was so truncated and cool here are some photos 

The view was just plain lovely and eventually when we got out to a dead end it was a bar so tht was interesting, we exited that area through a corner store cafe and I told j that I wanted to show him this art gallery and instead we walked into this other guys one

His paintings were amazing and the studie was 3 stories high!! 

I really liked his paintings cause he had a very cultural and 80s theme and played with different methods of painting along with traditional and not only that he played with shaped and shading to add a surreal side to his painting and also invited the audience and sometimes I just love art

And sometimes it just fucking confuses me

Like one the second art gallery we went to,

Contemporary arts, I feel like all it does is make this audience feel uncomfortable or uses different kinda of materials!!

Ok sure it's pretty and innovative but what does this mean

And it was labelled untitled  I mean like really really I hate it when artworks are called untitled cause it doesn't help the audience pin point what they want to see! Ok enought of art rant time

We then moved outside (after the little shop of course) and we spotted this man

A street performer

Sitting on the stairs of the art gallery 

And he just starts telling off this kid who is juggling

We decided that those kids must be bratty and did it to annoy him

With his slightly British accent he's just like "that's rude, yeah? If you wanna do that can you do it over there yeah? Cause I'm trying to work bla bla bla"

They eventually left

but this guy just kept on ranting on it was fucking hilarious! 

As a crowd began to form and he continued to not a single thing we decided to come up closer

Only to have sexist jokes spat around and it was just so cringeworthy we had to leave!!!

And move into the

botanical gardens where we sat in a vedy pretty gazebo! 

We were right by the Harbour as well! 

We decided to ditch circular quay and got back on the train to townhall where we went into the very lovely aquarium!!!!!

OOOO fish and water

What a cutie!!

It was super expensive tho! It wasn't all that worth it! But hey! I had a lot of fun and walked a shit load

We headed down to china town and peeked around morning glory bore heading towards central station

Where

Although we were meant to leave

We ended up talking for like 3 hours. It finally hit 10 and even hungry jacks was closing up and then we both vamoosed 

Getting home at 11 I dropped dead in my bed cause fuck

I waled so much AHAHAHAHA 

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"ruddy good study day"

so today was very very lovely

came into the day talking to jay on skype  till like 4 am

went to sleep

 woke up to my mum yelling

KFC WAS CLOSED SO I GOT YOU HUNGRY JACKS

what a sweet heart

she came to my room and gave me a kiss on my forehead and was like

stop wearing makeup before you go to bed

yeah its a bad habit but anyways

i ate some hungry jacks and headed out of the house providing my dad his keys and got him a can of coke

he was in a good mood and so was my mum and everyone was just happy and it made me happy

i bumped into danny on the train and i wished him luck and gave him half of my coke

thats pretty fucking generous cause i love coke, but the again i love danny

omg i was gonna write "i love cock"

Coke, cock, same same

man that woulve been bad

but yeah so again we were just chatting away and he was heading off to unsw i bet he did great in the test

got off at town hall

and to martin plce i went

i still remember that one joke that bobs and i made where

imagine we headed to Martin place and the doors opened to someone's apartment and it was just a bloke named Martin how lame AHHAHA

Anyway back to the tale

Went into state

Met up with Abel and Robert

This was the first time i ever really booked a room and we were so goddamn productive

Our rooms time was up

And we left to go eat - maccas

Then Abel left

Then I was chatting with Robert

And then we ended up getting a drink hahaha

And studying 

It was very very very Delish! 

And then he left and I left and my dad picked me up and got me KFC! (Finally) lololollllllllll!!!!

That was a great day

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"Exam"

I WOKE UP AT LIKE 6;30 MAN

got on a train

i barely studied so i might be fucked for the test

or the whole thing

ugh

anyways

left the house super early

met abel, j, robert and emma at the racecorse

did the test

we lost emma

and abel split

Rob and J and i walked all the way to uni from the race course

did some stuff at uni

some errands

by the way i got real good in theatre

then i was kinda lazy

just rob convince us to leave for round house

at roundhouse rob got us chips and he got himself a drink


i decided to get a drink

double black yum

he convinced me to get shots and the bartender made us a thing called "Marias" which was pretty pretty neato

it was vodka, mango midori, orange juice and a squeeze of lemon

i got a free shot fo free

and we kept going back and forth

and i got flirty and giggly

so did rob

and

j just awkwardly sat that sober monkey

so i had a can of double black

3 shots or "Marias"

a shot of cranberry something

and a shot of liquorish

here are pictures

the english boys and me being giggly and what not

then rob left to meet a friend

and i was left alone with j

which basically meant i took advantage of him body heat and purred up against him

im sorry by the by j

but any who

after i slept on his lap for a long ass time

we eventually left and went to a cafe near aim

he got a jumbo coffee and he got me a milkshake ^^

bobby and huynh appeared and eventually

jess

the awesome foursome (plus j)

and yea yeah yeah yeah eyaehfhkbnr

i was so tired and i like

went home

and j wouldn't come

and yeah

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"that one time"

Then like we also went to the city to buy records that one time yeah

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i love you when you're singing that song and,
i got a lump in my throat 'cause
you're gonna sing the words wrong-Riptide - Vance Joy (thanks bobby)