How in first year first sem I just passed (legit my mark was 50) for 3 out of 4 courses and I had a HD on the last one so it kept my marks a float. The only reason why I had a HD was because everyone else did the assignment wrong but me hahah!!!!!
Or
Also when i did history in first sem and i didnt hand in my assignement cause i couldnt find the box so i emailed the lady. when she was handing them out during class i didnt get mine
To the beautiful Yui,
I just wanted to comment on your photo to say that you are absolutely stunning. I would love to be your Senpai. I have a full time job and i live in a two bed apartment with my cat Rufus, he likes your photos too. I work in an accounting firm called MJS plus ...
I can't help but think that i am happier now than I ever was back then, i had so much pain and baggage, I cant believe I walked around thinking that pain was normal, that everyone else had the same experiences that I did
I look at myself in the mirror and in photos of 2021 and i see the wrinkles seep in, embedding me with wisdom. I hate it, and i hate that I hate it, saying to andrew the other day that I am going to get botox in between my eyebrows (honestly I totally would)
But then again, i am happy, being older, wiser, paving the way for the future generations. Figuring out who I really am and being happy with all of my many flaws.
I know this world isn't perfect, far from it, and thats ok, because that means I am imperfect in this far from perfect world
It's ok that my friends arent perfect, i fucking welcome it, I love it
and my family isnt perfect
my coworkers
students
everyone isnt perfect
I don;t know why i suddenly feel like this, maybe its because I know I will be ok
I am ok with working, with having friends and dropping them if they do no serve me anymore (and not getting offended if I don't serve them anymore)
I am no longer confined by my social anxiety, i seriously stopped caring about what others thought of me and focused on my self worth, something I did not have when I was 5, 10, 12, 16, 18, 20, 22 etc.
Now that I am 26 and working and still with the same friends I had in 2012, I feel very blessed, happy and content with life, especially when I speak to people who are much older than me
who arent as blessed as me;
unlike them i didn't listen to my parents when it came to certain things
I can see their rocky and dirty path that I never followed,
the path of forced love, breeding, greed for money, and the ignorance their parents passed on to them
I always felt like an outsider, a wallflower watching a system I didn't quite understand
I tried to fit the mould of said system only to realise that is fucking hurt me when I tried to fit into the square when I was in fact round and sharp in all the wrong places.
I found my people, who were also sharp and round in all the wrong places.
Fuck i cant even begin with the fucked up things people have told me about their lives, like you are meant to be older, wiser, more understanding,
but empathetic people are really fucking rare
I don;t know, i guess there are bad people in life, and when you come across them, just let them solidify your views and values,
That's what I do,
I am finally happy with who I am,
Happy with the people I have selected to be in my life,
Happy that I am 26, and moving onto 27.
Who knows what my 30's will bring me,
unlike me when I was 18 in 2013, I don't want to write a list of things I am hoping would happen, because things will happen naturally, unexpectedly,
