i was re reading my diary- ignoring some extracts bcuz noty
and i finally realised that i do feel 21
i dont know whether or not its because i am surrounded by 14 15 16 17 18 year olds- but yet i am 21.
For a long time i felt like i was 18 or 19 but that was 3 years ago- and i am not the woman i was 3 years ago. no where near
prac has been interesting, its not even the first week yet and i am already tired asf
i am slowly making friends- it makes the experience easier
friends make everything easier.
i think i need to see a shrink- i am way too insecure with myself AND OMG MY SPOTIFY JUST PLAYED FOREVER BY CHRIS BROWN AND NOW I FEEL 14
Lets move on to general interests
songs im really into now are
i have tried for so long to like this song but just COULDNT
but after seeing this video of this lady dancing for her husband on their wedding day i just thought that it was so cute and i find that chorus soooo catchy!
IGNORE THE VIDEO PLS ITS REALLY DOUCHEY
i started to listen to xxyyxx around 2014? 2013? i remember not being able to see their gig and i was really into his sound cloud so i downloaded his albums and this song really caught me
after a few years ago i forgot about it and then i was looking up "consideration" by rihanna and SZA
and THEN i looked SZA up and one of her hit songs "childs play" w/ chance the rapper had "about you" as the backing! i was like damn i hate her version of it haha but i got back into it
i listened to the song during a really fragile time, i was crying and it just let everything out, i intensely cried and then i just lay there in my bed listening to it. i cant explain how i felt. it was like cathartic? yep. thatll be the word
after that it calmedddddd me down
i put it on repeat and fell asleep around 2:40 is my fav part
legit you know that cry when you get crying hickups?
that part just shut me up and everything around me froze
i hope you guys all understand that feeling.
a few days later something happened and i was crying again
i went straight for this song.
its my calm down song
OK MOVING ON
a great series to watch is
Model Mother Tongue
its where gorgeous women speak in their language
these are my favourite - very well directed and edited
i felt like it was so successful because the women look so good and know how to use their bodies
ranked them from my fav
baby me like yuh
the australian on is not that great
OK! cool bye one- one last video