on thing i realised about myself is that i am sick
like im dying
everyday i feel like just disappearing
i want to give up. can this pain go away
will it ever go away
im sorry i have been so depressing lately
to everyone
i cant help it
i need to voice it
i am so miserable
i am sick- i am sick in the head
and i need help - i need mindfulness i just need to think hard
and long
about
what i want?
i dont know?
i feel like i dont know anything
i feel like i feel everything
my feelings are so confusing i just want to admit myself into hospital and sleep all day and all night and just sit there
just being sick
i dont care about the sun anymore
i dont care about the beach any more
i just want to feel sane again
and art wasn't supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something