but dude
bro dude bro
i am HYPED
HYPED UP ON KASABIAN I AM IN LOVEEEEEEE WITH EMPIRE i swear it just makes me wanna dance dance dance dance danceity dance dance FUCKiNG DANCE
and art wasn't supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something
i want him more than anyone in my life
I am sorry about my previous hissy fit
lets carry on to the life and times of your dearly beloved Maria Chan
OH KAY
it is already the 3rd week of high school which makes me wanna throw up
i havent been studying which is really really really bad DAMN YOU INTERNET!
and well i am in love!
It was a wednesday and the drama class decided to go on a lovely excursion!
It was so inspiring watching the different acts and watch a team WORK TOGETHERR
and then, this one act came on
it was just so fantastic
it was so funny i almost died, not to mention the lovely piece of ass onstage!
The play was about these 3 men going after a mythical creature which is adorable as fuck
It was very monty python not to mention on the the characters names is Monty :O:O
But i just feel in love with one of the actors he was hilarious! He was tall and had black hair
Anyways enough with the teenage hormones
Lets carry on to SPORT AND THE WEATHER
i dont know why i said that
i dont know why i say many things
maybe it is because i love to embarrass myself in public
i do, you know? making strangers laugh, not a better feeling
i tend to wave my arms about with an obscure comment
people stare at we weirdly but i dont mind
i admit i am an attention seeker, i am a drama queen after all
i love EYES ON ME
see what an egotistical maniac i am?
i am perfect for an actress (OHHHHHHHHHHH SNAP)
i am also having an identity crisis, i try and be someone im not and i dont know its me, i guess i have to wait until it hits me and i know who i am. I mean i have had many phases
- Year 6 K-pop phase
- Year 7 Anime Phase
- Year 8 Lebanese people rock phase
- Year 9 Scene/emo phase *face palm*
- Year 10 Paramore Pop Rock Phase
- Year 11 Hippy/indie Phase (BEATLES AND PSYCHEDELICNESS)
- Year 12 Grunge Phase
Ive noticed in all the stupid phases ive always stuck with black nail polish and black clothing.
I love black, half of my cupboard is black! I guess i finally noticed what kinda fashion i like which is grunge, i thought it was punk but punk was too extreme. I would be the weirdest punk out there, i rock up in studs and leather, and a slab of eyeliner and then
BOOM
"OMFG GUYS WASSUPPPP! *chest bump* now lets discuss our political views! "
Ive asked people if they thought i was sarcastic, i think i am honestly, bobina thinks i am, Sue thinks i am, no one else really does.
I think its because my sarcasm is to subtle, if people payed more attention to what i say they would see that i am very insulting and sarcastic, thank you Daria!
I think i am going to write down comments that i like and begin to write like a comedy routine, i would actually love to be a comedian, but i would play the race card a lot and it might offend.
But the best jokes are the offensive ones you gotta admit, i think the jokes ill write would be more the the first world problems and teenagers so a lot of people would relate.
Go on Australias got talent and embarrass myself even more in front of a whole nation, good times.
Anyways if my acts sucks they would forget me within a month, you know how fast people move on!
I am getting into listening to live shows, the music is different from studio, you see how much talent the artist really has, and plus guitar sounds more dirty and rugged, i like. I love seeing how tired the artist get and rocking out to their own songs with sweat dripping down their faces awesome.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlyMTzDjqNo
I love the Black Keys, and gosh he is really rocking the beard
My future husband HAS to have the ability to grow a beard so when we get old we can become fat and creepy, AWWW YEAAH.
Talking about the future, my kids can be my novelty items
I want my daughters name to be Stacey, WHY YOU ASK!? well i am glad you asked
because... STACYS MUM HAS GOT IS GOING ON
And i wanna name my son LUKE! WHY AGAIN YOU ASK!?
so my husband can be like
"LUKE I AM YOUR FATHERRRRRR!"
And i would like to thank everybody for the bad future mother of the year award, i appreciate your votes!
Gooodbyeeeee and ROCK ON
I Would Probably Adore You With Your Hands Around My Neck
Life Sucks
As you can see im not chipper, i am so depressed right now, it might be the fact that my uterus decided to go on a blood parade and i am feel nothing but regret.
I really liked this guy, i dont know why, i barely knew him but to me he was my dream man!
i let him slip away, why you ask?
i dont bloody know
i guess playing hard to get doesnt work huh?
now he is taken and im still a single lady and no one wants to put a ring on me.
Oh well!
Thats teenage drama for you!
And dear god im craving a bass! guitar that is.
im so passionate about that deep spine tingler but my parents to passionate on finding a lovely house.
Just this one thing will keep me happy and off the internet, but the problem is that i wont be able to afford lessons goddammit!!!!!!!!!!
i guess ill have to self teach, i kinda did bass tabs on guitar.
Oh why cant i have a talent in music, i wish i was able to sing but i sound like a pig dying, true story!
I hate life, i feel like i'l never find someone like me, who likes my music, my clothes, who llikes me, woah the last line made me laugh, well done maria you just became a cliche!
Lately ive been way to judgemental all ive been doing is dissing everything, everyone even myself. When i have a though i think to myself, did i just think that? am i the only one who talks to myself??? Because i constantly have a voice in my head that tells me to kill and kill again, no im joking but im always stuck in my thoughs and i hate it, why cant i just not think?
When im alone my brains goes "hey maria you know what you havent thought about in ages? Monsters, regrets, hate, self image, oh and by the way your leg is itchy now!" and im just like FUCK YOU BRAIN!
Sometimes i think i am weird, your probably thinking, "oh yeah you think your random and funny, well everyone thinks that and theyre not" oh god why the fuck do i have such negative thoughts. But i think im different ive tried talking about particular things and i go "do you ever have that?" they look at me weird and say NO! and im like am i fucked up?
Why do i feel angry, empty and sad all the time?
why do i feel like a worthless little nothing and if i disappeared nothing will change?
Why do i feel so alone?
Why wont anyone understand me?
Why can't i just be happy?
Just for one day?
I hate being a teenager and i hate teenagers
just watching them makes me cringe with their cake face and mini-skirts i think, well done on being a whore!!!
want to "grow up"
wanting to drink
wanting to sleep around
just act your fucking age, sadly this is apparently the best time of our lives
shit just gets worst
and know that just makes me want to kill myself.
Oh Dear God, get me out of this state of Depression.
I fancy you with a passion, you're a top shop princess and a rockstar too
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