It's the 13th of February 2014. It's a Thursday.

It's 8:21 in the morning and I'm on the station ready for work

It's hot and I'm sweating

Whilst waiting for the elevator I stood next to an old man and he let me in the elevator first! 

What a gentleman! That made my morning

Transit officers all up in my grill but I don't mind

It's not like in doing anything wrong

I'm kinda self conscious again about my mark because I decided not to wear make up today

I'm in a really excited mood today, I don't know why

It might be a good day!

But the problem is I have news to piss off my parents, I don't know how to go about that...

Behind me is a Cambodian woman on the phone hahah, we always sound angry on the phone because we speak with such a bitchy flare and passion

I can see school girls. I miss school. The closeness of everyone. 

It's 8:26 and I'm on the train and canley vale station has a ramp thing. I smell a pork roll. 

9:24

Work has begun and I am slightly awake, thank god for tea aye? 

In a sec I am going to put my phone in back room to play music

I can't stop listening to white lies by max frost hahha it's a really good song, very funky

I can hear the song titanium

We are selling manga 10 for $20 again there is this series called vagabond which my friend told me about

I'm thinkin of getting it for him, I texted him about it

If he doesn't want it I might get it for my brothers

The store (B2, my pop up store where I work alone) is completely empty

Erin is relieving me tho so I'm excited

I'm working 2 shifts next week

There is nothing to do here

It's gonna be a Long day and I'm already falling asleep. 

Lets clean this place up! 

It's 12:11 50 more min till break and I'm starving 

Still nothing to do. 

1:55 finished lunch a while ago, I have stickering now and a bloated belly

I regret buying maccas for lunch

I always do

Anyways, time to play my music

Florence is playing in the background of Westies. Very faint. I'm stickering hsc books. Good times. 

She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn't supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something.-Eleanor & Park, Rainbow Rowell

What am I going to do today?

I came home to a messy room

I left it that way because my family is nosy and I have things to hide

But then again don't we all?

I also came home to a happy family 

I accidentally told them I was coming a day later

We went to eat out at a local rsl club

I felt a bit emotional seeing my brother I don't know why. I almost cried. 

My other brother is losing weight! I'm so proud of him! My 2 cousins were also overweight and one of them told me that my brother was going to gain an eating disorder just like she and her brother did. 

That broke my heart what she said and I'm so glad that it hasn't happened, sure he's eating less but he's gyming and doing it the right was which makes me proud. 

He is also coming out of his shell with me, that silent blob of a middle child is beginning to mumble "Maria...." More often   which is nice. 

I think they missed me while I was away. 

I woke up a bit sad and to really slow Internet! I woke up at 8 but went back to sleep, If I knew my mum was home I would've stayed up at 8 to do something with her! But I guess she felt like I needed a rest.

I was talking to Brit last night, I miss her, she and I were talking about a project we wanna do involving minimal photography and just me as a model. She told me she doesn't know many people who like that kinda thing. Dw. Me too. It's nice meeting people who share your interest

i dont know what to do today.

i have work tmr 

i think im going to shower

actually get stuff unpacked and then read

yes

that is what ill do

i like people who make boring things fun i like thinking "i know itll be fun if youre there"

i want this fuckking mark to go away

alcohol taste better than you anyway

Im so afraid of the future that I cried

Then someone told me nows not the time to be thinking of the future. 

It made me feel much better.