(◡‿◡✿): 2018

this is 2018 in no particular order. it first began with an order but all the photos got jumbled up and got too confusing to fix. so i am just going to leave it like this.

2018 was a pretty uneventful year for me compared to 2017 where i went on a self discovery journey.

2018 was more of a healing year, a year of decision making, and a year of waiting.

it was a very itchy year. it felt so slow and stagnant. 2017 was about living my life, about giving myself time. there was always something to do. it was my gap year, it was my break from life. I was able to travel and try new things.

2018 was meant to be a year of moving forward.. which i did but it took a loooong ass time. i was so over working at dymocks. i wanted a job, i wanted to start my life and it wasnt happening for me because the world around me wanted me to slow down.

it was a mixture of fear and anger. which was 2016. that was a darkest year. that was a reflective year.

but 2017 was learning to overcome my fear and realising that the world is a million times bigger than me. and nothing i do matters, the world will keep going round.

2018 was a year of taking my superficial fear (like jumping off cliffs and boats and shooting guns) and approaching the scariest thing ever. The real world, Real life. It was a year of finishing my degree and really thinking about what i wanted to with my life. I was over working in retail, in the job that was insanely easy (which i loved in 2016-2017 because it was safe) but i came to realise that safe was boring.

that i was wasting my energy and talents.

but not its time

2019 is going to be me in the real world

im scared, but im as ready as ill ever be