and i want to make it worth the fight
what have we been doing all this time
baby is we're gonna do come on do it right
why am i listening to gwen stafani at this time am i right?
oo and a change up with the quote being in the front yeah cass?
awesome
so yes i have been listening to a lot of electronic lately like ta-ku and xxyyxx and even some flume, not to mention hip hop like biggie smalls and ect and also old songs i listened to in 2006so thats been cool
the only chances i havent been listening to them is blasting it in eehs car, he literally drives me everywhere now, i feel like ishould buy him dinner only cause andrew and jesss drives put together dont even add up to how much eeh has driven me
good on ya for keeping up with my company
usually people give up on me by now haha
dont worry itll happen eventually
youre a very patient person e :)
so yes, why am i awake? i dont know
i just dont want to do anything
i should be studying and i will tmr i swear
if i wake up on time
im excited for tuesday cause i am going to do a bunch or errands for myself and try and feel like a grown up not to mention the fact i am working inbetween those days
work is awesome because it is a distraction
when im overworked i am tired and when im tired i am way too tired to be sad
man i have overworked the word tried in there
get it?
no ok, welp, people are posting again and it is really making me happy haha
i have been watching a lot of parks and recreation lately i dont know why
i want to be creative, its a yearning and at time like this (3 in the morning) my self esteem has hit an all time low like it usually does, im not sad ive just been feeling a bit edgy lately like something is missing
ok i might be a little sad because of that, but i try not to think about it
sometimes my brain hurts when i listen to too much music, i know, isnt that impossible
April come she will by simon and garfunkel is so calming, it reminds me so much of the graduate, but then again simon and garfunkel did write the whole soundtrack for it
i love old movies, i feel like ive stepped in a whole new world, like by old i mean not now like even 5 years ago it makes me laugh
just the clothes setting effects jokes themes politics in the movie even
i mean top hat was such a joy no one understands, the set is so obviously a set and the effects were laughable and the fashion was mind bobbling not to mention the means of entertainment back in the days, it was MUSICALS like wow its was such a good movie
then the graduate, the fashion and the poeple and the uni and it was just lovely to watch, and fucking blow up thats some crazy avant-garde shit
OMG i went to go watch catching fire, fucking amazing seriously as good as the first
but i wish katnisss hair wasnt so black, it was like pitch and it was brown in the first
i hate it when people dye their hair from something bright to pitch black and is like OMG back to natural
like no brown is more natural and really dark brown, its so overwhelming when they dye it comepletely back its scary haha]
the only thing im really excited for is next year, i mightve already mentioned that this year was overwhelming for me like its just painful
i want to improve myself, maybe change my room around, buy new furniture, get shelves and just empty things up its so clustered and buy new things
Danny told me it feels good cause its an illusion of productivity'
HOW RIGHT YOU ARE MY FRIEND HAHHAHA
you sir are amazing
oh lets just mention some of my new years resolution, first of all they may hold in the hands of 3 people
Andrew- Health, he always complains about my health, habit and thighs, and so maybe with his constant babbling i can eat healthy, stop eating junk food, start cooking for myself and maybe even gym or run of just "feel better inside" he claims :)
Danny- Study, frankly he scares me and tells me im stupid in a very womanly empowering way if that makes sense, he focuses on study like crazy, and hes very um,.. clean as well so that might also help BUT maybe he can change my poor, very poor, like REALLY poor sstudying habits and get my wam much higher
Eeh- Shutting the fuck up- he is the most important person in this operation, unlike emily im the opposite of private, i think its a result from being in the kik cause ive never properly been in a group ive just had boby but yeah, he is going to help me privatise myself and just stopping
so yeah thats one of my missions next yeah AND OH IF DANNY DOESNT MOVE TO WESTERN SYDNEY AND EEH GETS INTO UNSW WE WILL ALL BE THERE AW YEAH
so before next year if i have time off work or the beginning of next year ima clear my room, get new things and have these boys make me and better me cause i hate me right now oh and i need uni friends badly but sandy is coming along well like seriously shes so cool
she gave me a lecture and she told me funny storys and we shared maccas and she said if she were to get me anything for xmas she would get me a popular penguin book, oh how lovely is she??
OOOOO
let me add something else
this is something i found on tumblr
things to start doing:
- drink more water
- carry a camera everywhere i go
- read more books than i already do
- go for walks
- do yoga more often
- go to bed earlier
- enjoy the little things
- go outside more
- stop comparing myself to others
- stick to my goals n stop putting things off
- write down my feelings
- smile more, especially at random people
isnt it lovely?
must do! i must remember this post.. and clean up my room, i mean its clear just CLUSTERED
#stress
i feel just overwhelmed
why cant i have money
lets talk christmas, im excited to get gifts. i have huynh, bobby, jess and claudia sold
i just want the joy of chirstmas and drinking egg nog as a chaser
or maybe ill drink wine all night
oh thats something else i wanna do
drink wine quite often
with cigars
not wait thats whiskey
man whiskey is nasty
man
gin ugh
omg tequila, YES and and green fairy <3
god some poeple are asses
i love and hate
i should sleep
good bye
kisses
this video understands
“maybe if i drink another coffee, i will feel better”
“maybe if i buy myself a new sweater, i will feel better”
“maybe if i get so drunk i can’t see, i will feel better”
“maybe if i sleep for fourteen hours, i will feel better”