I'm still hoping to say "we were best friends since year 8"
Having a car
Driving that car
Having a weird amount of paper and pens and drawings in tht car, and furry dice hanging on the review mirror of that car
And finding it funny every time
Having my parents actually trust me and not calling me up all the time
Allowed to stay over the night, two nights, three nights
A part-time job
Dyed hair
Expensive clothes
Piercings and tattoos
Fat bank account
(At the rate I'm going I might have 20,000 in my bank account)
Living in a bigger house
Being fit
Being happy even
That's my illusion of 22
Getting out of this phase and finally trying to be a grown up, a happy grown up
Seeing my brother, Saphearak, complain about his second year in uni, he's 20 and he is slimmed down but still quite tubby and has a sweet quite chubby girlfriend, they're obviously gonna get married, they play games a lot and she and I go shopping, I get to know Saphearak through her, I feel like I know Saphearak through her
Marcel is 14, he skateboards to school and back because he doesn't want mum to drive, pimples but really tall, dark but handsome. I force him to do drama and he hates it (not) Miss Kenna loves him and tells me about him, he wants to ask a girl up but he's too shy, I try to help him but he won't let me, he's more open than Saphearak ever was
Mum, I hope she looks old, still tries to look young, actually promoted in her job and less days of work but she still complains, she asks if we want another brother/sister in your life, because her babies are never home, marcel rolls his eyes
Dad, starts his own business, and stops complaining about his bad back, he gives up on his hair cause balding has literally taken over, not a single hair on his head, only on his face, loves mum more than ever because he's happy with being his own boss, she is more ok with us cause dad keeps her company
I hope 22 is beautiful
I see you in colours that don't exist- Paul Matsumoto
and the tears are pouring and i want to make it worth the fight what have we been doing all this time baby is we're gonna do come on do it right
why am i listening to gwen stafani at this time am i right?
oo and a change up with the quote being in the front yeah cass?
awesome
so yes i have been listening to a lot of electronic lately like ta-ku and xxyyxx and even some flume, not to mention hip hop like biggie smalls and ect and also old songs i listened to in 2006so thats been cool
the only chances i havent been listening to them is blasting it in eehs car, he literally drives me everywhere now, i feel like ishould buy him dinner only cause andrew and jesss drives put together dont even add up to how much eeh has driven me
good on ya for keeping up with my company
usually people give up on me by now haha
dont worry itll happen eventually
youre a very patient person e :)
so yes, why am i awake? i dont know
i just dont want to do anything
i should be studying and i will tmr i swear
if i wake up on time
im excited for tuesday cause i am going to do a bunch or errands for myself and try and feel like a grown up not to mention the fact i am working inbetween those days
work is awesome because it is a distraction
when im overworked i am tired and when im tired i am way too tired to be sad
man i have overworked the word tried in there
get it?
no ok, welp, people are posting again and it is really making me happy haha
i have been watching a lot of parks and recreation lately i dont know why
i want to be creative, its a yearning and at time like this (3 in the morning) my self esteem has hit an all time low like it usually does, im not sad ive just been feeling a bit edgy lately like something is missing
ok i might be a little sad because of that, but i try not to think about it
sometimes my brain hurts when i listen to too much music, i know, isnt that impossible
April come she will by simon and garfunkel is so calming, it reminds me so much of the graduate, but then again simon and garfunkel did write the whole soundtrack for it
i love old movies, i feel like ive stepped in a whole new world, like by old i mean not now like even 5 years ago it makes me laugh
just the clothes setting effects jokes themes politics in the movie even
i mean top hat was such a joy no one understands, the set is so obviously a set and the effects were laughable and the fashion was mind bobbling not to mention the means of entertainment back in the days, it was MUSICALS like wow its was such a good movie
then the graduate, the fashion and the poeple and the uni and it was just lovely to watch, and fucking blow up thats some crazy avant-garde shit
OMG i went to go watch catching fire, fucking amazing seriously as good as the first
but i wish katnisss hair wasnt so black, it was like pitch and it was brown in the first
i hate it when people dye their hair from something bright to pitch black and is like OMG back to natural
like no brown is more natural and really dark brown, its so overwhelming when they dye it comepletely back its scary haha]
the only thing im really excited for is next year, i mightve already mentioned that this year was overwhelming for me like its just painful
i want to improve myself, maybe change my room around, buy new furniture, get shelves and just empty things up its so clustered and buy new things
Danny told me it feels good cause its an illusion of productivity'
HOW RIGHT YOU ARE MY FRIEND HAHHAHA
you sir are amazing
oh lets just mention some of my new years resolution, first of all they may hold in the hands of 3 people
Andrew- Health, he always complains about my health, habit and thighs, and so maybe with his constant babbling i can eat healthy, stop eating junk food, start cooking for myself and maybe even gym or run of just "feel better inside" he claims :)
Danny- Study, frankly he scares me and tells me im stupid in a very womanly empowering way if that makes sense, he focuses on study like crazy, and hes very um,.. clean as well so that might also help BUT maybe he can change my poor, very poor, like REALLY poor sstudying habits and get my wam much higher
Eeh- Shutting the fuck up- he is the most important person in this operation, unlike emily im the opposite of private, i think its a result from being in the kik cause ive never properly been in a group ive just had boby but yeah, he is going to help me privatise myself and just stopping
so yeah thats one of my missions next yeah AND OH IF DANNY DOESNT MOVE TO WESTERN SYDNEY AND EEH GETS INTO UNSW WE WILL ALL BE THERE AW YEAH
so before next year if i have time off work or the beginning of next year ima clear my room, get new things and have these boys make me and better me cause i hate me right now oh and i need uni friends badly but sandy is coming along well like seriously shes so cool
she gave me a lecture and she told me funny storys and we shared maccas and she said if she were to get me anything for xmas she would get me a popular penguin book, oh how lovely is she??
OOOOO
let me add something else
this is something i found on tumblr
things to start doing:
drink more water
carry a camera everywhere i go
read more books than i already do
go for walks
do yoga more often
go to bed earlier
enjoy the little things
go outside more
stop comparing myself to others
stick to my goals n stop putting things off
write down my feelings
smile more, especially at random people
isnt it lovely?
must do! i must remember this post.. and clean up my room, i mean its clear just CLUSTERED
#stress
i feel just overwhelmed
why cant i have money
lets talk christmas, im excited to get gifts. i have huynh, bobby, jess and claudia sold
i just want the joy of chirstmas and drinking egg nog as a chaser
or maybe ill drink wine all night
oh thats something else i wanna do
drink wine quite often
with cigars
not wait thats whiskey
man whiskey is nasty
man
gin ugh
omg tequila, YES and and green fairy <3
god some poeple are asses
i love and hate
i should sleep
good bye
kisses
this video understands
“maybe if i drink another coffee, i will feel better”
“maybe if i buy myself a new sweater, i will feel better”
“maybe if i get so drunk i can’t see, i will feel better”
“maybe if i sleep for fourteen hours, i will feel better”
The diary of Frida Kahlo: An Intimate Self-Portrait
body chain
cat eye glasses
blank books
Moleskin journal no lines plz
(snez since you specialise in makeup, i need foundation and concealer, i have no idea how to pick it out for myself hahaha, oh and do you know any good lip stains?)
Maid costume (ok not for sexual purposes {entirely} but I wanna wear it while cleaning up my room, you know, for encouragement)
charcoal and sketching paper
above knee high socks (black or white plz)
those white socks which are like calve high and have stripes on the top
denim skirt
proper garter straps, black, im a small, im sure of it
fuckng hair ties
CURLING IRON
checkered shirts
band shirts, led zep, pink floyd or <arctic monkeys preferably the logo with a union jack>
black (not all over, laces and sole still white) high top chucks
red vans
no beatles things unless its revolver on record, but eehs gonna get me that so no bother :) (((RIGHT E)))
most of you must know the boots i wore in high school, sadly i can never find them anywhere cause they are out of stock but if you find me something like that i would love you forever (they are like pretty high tops unlike those tedious combat boots, these are a mans bots son)
evil eyes and hamsa bracelets
So like, I went shopping at basement books at the end of the uts exist at central and well
I usually don't want people to buy me art supplies cause they usually get the shotty stuff and I can't use them and they're no good
But since art supplies are fucking expensive, ill show you what I want :), in all seriousness if you get me a bunch of water colour paper you will make my life cause art will never escape me, it's a talent I know I have and not many others can carry and so I feel special so I hope someone gets me a collection of these papers
The larger the better and the tougher the better because as you may not know the paper is thicker so it doesn't bend as easy, if you easily get me 2 or 3 of these you're set for life, I also don't mind small, I love all sizes cause it doesn't matter, what matters if how you use it ;)
WTF is this you might say, as this, my friend, is an art box, it'll just hold my basic paints and yada yada, I like being organised especially with my art supplies cause some of my things are sharp and I accidentally cut myself
Oh god yes and not to mention
PAINTS, THESE PAINTS ARE CHEAP AS AND OMG
JUST GET MY THE PRIMARY COLOURS AND BLACK AND WHITE OK!?
NOTHING IN BETWEEN CAUSE I CAN JUST MAKE MY OWN COLOURS
