C'mon Get Drunk

So yesterday was my first party involving the infamous alcohol!

I stayed sober when honestly i didnt want to be

i wanted to know what kind of drunk i'll be


But seeing E drunk was the worlds greatest thing

i swear to god usually e is so walled up and serious

but dear god list night

HE WAS SO AWESOME

i'm just like, how do you feel?

and he was like, dizzy... and happy

and i was like shit gotta get me a drink

and then i saw the others who were just so

wow

like no just no fuck that :L

The jumping castle ruled so much

i just- cant- even-

NINJA!

yeah i think that sums up the day!

oh and baileys are fucking disgusting

Blank

Dear god i want to become an actress so so so sosososoososososoososososos bloody bad!

I just

i

feelings

are

just


i just want to do it so bad but i constantly feel like my mother is going to hate me for it

I love my mum very much but she has many negative traits

I think her worst one is

well


she cares too much about what everyone else thinks!

my dad is the exact opposite so i thank god!

I was just, you know doing some chores

and my dad said something

like

he was really proud of us, my brother especially for working really hard today

because my dads a builder and my brothers helped him today (yes they were paid)

And my mum was like

"whats the point! not one of them made it to selective! None of them are smart!"

and i'm just like

omg wtf


bdfjksvbhjstfvbhdv she is just constantly comparing our family to this other


and it made me so depressed because i really really want to go to a theatre school!

but i know shes

just

going to be horrible about it

she just wants to impress her friends through us

shes always talking about this one friend who had a really smart son
or bla bla bla for fuck sake its just

so depressing


i just want to run away and pursue my dream alone, but i have no money

no one to stay with


i feel like if they did allow me to go to the school

theyll constantly treat me like a disappointment


everyones just like "JUST DO IT"

and im like NO! you dont understand

everyday just she expects me to go to university

and i would love to go

very much

its just i feel like i have going to follow a mundane unsatisfied life

I want to be an actress

not for the fucking fame

no just no

because its something that makes me happy

something i feel i do actually quite alright in

everyday i feel like a failure but when i act i feel like i can be someone else

push my emotions to another direction

that the  beauty of acting

becoming someone else





oh dear god why did i have to be born creative?
why did i have to be born Asian?





dear god why does everything have to suck to fucking much?



why cant i just make my mum proud?

Athletics

So yesterday was athletics carnival so that was nice

i am the worlds worst team captain but fuck it i got a free shirt aha

i spent the whole day, not doing sport, but at the grill

making snags with a coupla blokes and sheelas

ahaa i felt so Australian!

i dont know why it was so fun just cooking for a day

so hot i swear sweating like a pig

and when i wasnt cooking i was wondering the fields with Willy which was nice


and oh god i had a sunny boy in one hand and i decided to demonstrate a mexican wave

yeah that was not a good idea

i was sticky the whole day


yeah i guess thats all for today

blablabalbabablbalblba






Elvis where are you when i need you most? White comp sequins, jumpsuit ghost

Quiz Night

So i went to pats bro for a quiz night

it was nice :)

I was very proud of myself when it came to the music section ah

i felt like a child in a candy store
who was too freaked out to as the cashier for the candy i want

i swear to god i am the queen of metaphors!
My favorite one recently is in drama
the first day we planned our act we were all so excited
but the next day we realised how hard it was and we got depressed

and ze fash (drama student teacher) asked us what was wrong and it was hard to explain, so..
i said "It was like we saw the finished product off for example of a house
and now we just realised how hard it was for the plumbing to build the house together!"

yeah step back master lyricist!!

Oh talking about songs! i am writing a song about nipples now!!

yes dear Amber has the answers i asked her what song i should write about
and she choose nipple BECAUSE

well heart shaped nipples, arent they weird!?
can you naturally get heart shaped nipples?
or do you have to go through a process or something?

i mean if i had heart shaped nipples i would prance around without a bra and have nip slips all the time

Oh and breast

i dont like BIG boobs like i find them disturbing

thats all