Before I go to bed

I have to wake up at 6 am tomorrow and I am going to be driving for an hour to the city which is going to be terrifying not to mention I don't know how to reverse park in my mums car!!

I've been really annoyed lately 

I don't know why

I feel bothered

 

My rooms messy again and I don't know how

I feel like I don't have control of myself

I might just be freaking out about my essay and I'm really behind in uni

I just

I don't know what I want

I feel stuck in this domestic sludge

What happened to me?

My dreams of wanting to be a star? Be big?

Maybe everyone wants fame so desperately it just turns me off??

I want to just sit and stare at the world so I can feel like I'm not apart of it

Then I stand up and go because I'm late for something or have something to attended to

Man life is dullllllll

IT'S SO DULL

I WANT TO DIE

I WANT MY TIME BACK

I JUST WANT TO DO FUCK ALL

this might be coming from going to cabra library with drew and huynh today, it was nostalgic just like the hsc daysssss

The sun was high

I wore a dress

 

I just want to dieeeeeeee

P.s. the only thing I can think of is how I'm going to renovate my new room, it's the only thing I'm looking forward to in life

That and the Summer break <3 

I just want to feel like life is going somewhere

What happened to my dreams man?

Bedroom inspooo

I literally just followed a shit load of interior design instags, I really want my room to look great!

Oh! And I went to this girls party and she had the best fucking room no joke

Ok good night! I love you guys!

RE: life

Wrapz

I've been listening to a lot of rap and U.O.E.N.O.

hahah 

So currently my favourite rappers include, in no particular order

• Tyler The Creator
• Earl Sweatshirt
• I like Snoop Dogg but not as a rapper more as a person
• Childish Gambino
• Kendrick Lamar
• ScHoolboy Q
• Chance The Rapper
• And of course Biggie Smalls

I dont know why i have this sudden genre change but it's just really nice to listen to when i, angry

all the anger and sadness and wanting to dance at the same time?

How could you not want to listen 2 dat shie

Ok so videos to strike conversation

Gold

Chet Faker

This video slips is so hypnotic, i mean look at their thunder thighs

i mean they must be some serious rollerskaters man

I like how at the end [[Spoilers]] when shes just luring you in 

and then Chet is just chilling in a car beside of a deer

like wut

but i think he is the best person ive seen life mainly because he mixes

the versions he creates of his songs live

its insane

its more dancey which is fucking perfect

you must see him ive

I'm planning to go to listen out ahhh!!

The Worst Guys

Childish Gambino ft. Chance the Rapper

This was the first song i loved in Childish Gambinos album

Chance being in it makes it better

The Video makes it a million times better

please watch it

If you really want to crave summer

fucking watch this, its so beautiful and chill

and theyre both so cute!

hehehe

Collard Greens

ScHoolboy Q ft. Kendrick Lamar

Well the only reason really that i am posting this song is because its my fav right now

ahahahah

I'm really digging the black hipster look

ScHoolboy and his bucket hats are so cute

i love him even more because he loves his daughter so much

on his instagram he has a pic of her smiling 

and the caption was 

"THis is wHy i Hate being a rapper"

Its so sad

But yeah the vid is so trippy and fun and KENDRICK IS IN IT

i love love love him

i think he would be my fav rapper tbh

anyways

at one point of the song 

When Kendrick starts 

around 1:58

You see maklmore or however you spell his name

how random

if you keep watching kendrick starts rapping slow

At around 2:12

there are 3 girls

who are beautiful

 Seeing girls like that really make me appreciate my skin tone

my whole life i hated being dark

even when i was a little girl

i wanted light skin blonde hair and blue eyes

i didnt know why that was

probs the bullying around highschool        

but now i truly love myself and my skin colour

today at the dymocks photoshoot the makeup artist said i had great skin

woo!

anyways

i want to look like those girls

i could never find the right colour for my skin because every makeup look i save or search for are for white women

Just wanted you guys to know im happy :)

about my skin colour

my life still sucks

lol

Reach for the stars so if you fall you'll land on the clouds - kanye west - homecoming