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Is it Twenty-Fifteen Already?

Oh What a year.

Huynh became 19 and i spent the whole night crying and supporting a poor eyebrow game, what was i thinking?

The moon was bright asf and drew and i wanted to be tourist

2 xmas gifts on the beach, a lot of dead seagulls that day

beach again, the sky was paradise, that is why i love coogee, the sunsets there are always spot on

You dont wanna know

Terrigal!!

matching flowers

Valentines Day in Canberra, all i remember was that it was cold and patchy

first time flip out

first time model

Mars Chan

good times, that was a great yet hectic night, i think that was the angriest ive ever been

poppin'

STIFI, v cheap and v great night

nineteen bitch

more nineteens and more crying

being andrews muse

first time Marys YASSSSS!

taking eeh to see jeson deulo, nothing was better then the disappointment in his face

jks

shitty uts party, purple elephant and disrespectful white people but fun white people who were cute and well dressed

fashion frenzy with my mum which was weird LOL, i look cute there :$

Made Tacos with the boys, idk why thats here but it made me happy i guess

90's bitch

got my eyebrows done for the first time... i didnt like it

over my dead body! Chet would be by far the best person i saw live! mainly because he provides new material, it was magical and just shined talent

Diki's party, i miss her dearly and i wish i was sober for that night damn lol

looking for dikis house and got lost in the amazon whoops!

mandarin picking like wuuutttt this picture is spot on

drunk bae, nothing better than being sober and watching andrew throw up on grass and dance like a russian

20!

professional caking

Fish finger kinda night

that one time we saw a wild kangaroo and watched the stars

splendour in the selfie

luv dis

Exploring and finding the dune, im so glad hes in my life

Work party minus all the staff except me, sam and jess, oh and plus all of sams friends and friends of friends

First time settling into my new room

breaking into my new home and dancing whilst drunk asf

getting our flame on whilst getting sober

Listen out the very next day

And watching and being reunited with Dan the day after that

Renting a boat and finding our haven

Driving the boat and killing my friends

work party again, oh sam

First time Ramen Burger

First time Magnum w/ rose petals

Wickedddd

Theatre ;), getting to work in a theatre space rules

awks outfit clash :/

no, we were the sculptures by the sea~ we are art and beauty

Surprise Nancy and tmi with Julie

Being andrews muse and it actually being successful

Peace in my gesture and Peace in my mind

I felt young again (i know i am but you get the point)

I felt the beauty in the world

I felt my need to be healthy

I felt connected

I felt loved

i felt loveddd ;)

Now i feel a new yeear

New experiences

More smiles

More beauty

More Music

and more laughter

Although i saw pain and death in the new year, i also see myself growing

i hate growing, it scares me

happy belated 2015 post, i love you

I was meant to start cleaning my room at 8.35, next thing i know its 10:20

How in heck does this happen?

Hi, its Maria

i havent blogged in a while frankly because i dont want to and ive been really lazy

life, what is it even?

i have been napping like crazy and to be frank doing nothing but hanging out with Andrew, bumming around and wasting money. He mustve been really bored while i was gone, ive never known him to be so quiet, i kept chatting away about queensland whilst he kept thinking of things to say except for "i legit did nothing"

hahaaha i really missed him while i was away

ANYWAYS queensland was really good, only flaw were wet feet, sticky hair, and a constant fear of having my phone around water (which was everywhere..) which only meant i couldnt take any photos

the one i was most upset that i couldnt take was when the sun was setting, hellen and i were on the dock, right in front of the boat leaning on the rails, the water was a blue-ish green and the flying fish would spray out of the water out of nowhere, i looked up and the sky was a purple blue, there was a distant island, right at that moment it the moon hung above it and a sail boat drifted by

i felt so surreal, not to mention the whitehaven beach

i could just die there

it was indescribable

everything was ..

i was so relaxed, as i lay on the boat in the sun as i felt the sea rock me i couldnt think of anything besides how happy i was, i forgot what it was like to be stressed, i forgot about uni and my family and my room and i even forgot about andrew it was weird

this was the only thing going through my mind " "

yep, nothing, i couldnt think of anything to fixate on

man, i wish i was there again, scuba diving, snorkeling, swimming, paddle boarding, laughing, singing, watching, riding, napping, splashing, hiking.

sitting on the front corer of the boat with my feet out having water splash on my toes as someone applies sunscreen on my back

IT WAS JUST MAGICAL

i was what i needed, it really was

man i love the beach, no regrets that trip, no regrets

Oh and to top it off, i went into a book store and found alice in wonderland and through the looking glass, a 1979 version, hardcover for 50c, what was even better was that i found the outsiders, a book that i have been meaning to read and buy for about a year for, wait for it, 50c!!!

i finished it the day after i got it, i couldnt put it down and i didnt want to finish it, i swear to god the last few days were, just, i cant, guys im really happy, i really am, i feel like myself again, my high school self, where i didnt worry about anything and felt like living is the best thing to do

i havent gymed in a while and i dont care

i i i i i i am sooooo happy

Thank you Queensland

Thank you Powerplay

Thank you Sun

Thank you for reminding me that i am still me

photo tyme