Oh, I tell you something more
What my brain is bleeding for
And it hurts, my darling
But I breathe out sorrow
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I took the day off today, maybe the depression is back,
maybe im tired
I just feel burnt out, tired, I really want to work hard and I try my best to do so but I know the work I am giving it not me - I will admit aspects of it are still good but again
its the excess paper work stuff I can't handle
I cant handle the people I am working with- theyre not bad people but the fucking drama is mind numbing
I also have a lot of "friends"/ people I am obligated to talk to
I feel like everyone wants to talk at me and not to me
I guess i am feel lonely, maybe I dont know
I dont feel particularly happy right now,
i have been going out every single day and it is a lot
I have been eating junk and maybe that is what is killin my mood and my body
I was fasting but i stopped
idk where i am going with this
but i just want to be left alone
in a bubble
by myself
maybe. i just miss the sun