all day i have been sleeping
i feel it
you feel it
we are all tired
we are all already sick of uni
we are all losing grip
grip of out lives
our study
our sleep
and mainly our sanity
we can do this
not really
hhahaha
im going insane
we all are
“If a writer falls in love with you, you can never die.”
and art wasn't supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something
Worried
I'm kind of really worried about myself.
ive been going out way too much recently and thats all i want to do. i never want to be home. i feel like my friends are my family now!
everytime im home my mums just sleeping on that couch downstairs waiting for me. shes always asleep by the time i get home which is super bad
it all started after one of my days at work (sunday im sure) i somehow ended up at bobbys house with the boys. E, Huynh and drew. all of us together just playing a new game we learnt to play- Small Worlds
HOLY SHIT I JUST REALISED I CAN CALL IT FAMILY NIGHT
MY AND ANDREWS ADOPTED GAY AND AFRICAN SONS
!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its really fun but you boys gotta learn i get really competitive and im not really good at it
previous games would show that i am too
but you know all fun and games
until andrew and i form an alliance :)
look how bad my eye bags are
Monday i went to O-week again with the boys. we were too tired to play the game after
we explored and got freebies
we were really late so like yeah
hold on a sec -
LOL nvm personal note. ANYWAYS SO LIKE THEN WE WENT TO THE SODA FACTORY WHICH WAS AMAZING
i got myself a hamburger springroll which was like really cool!!! :D
the night after, i think i went somewhere with drew and we decided to have a second round of small worlds. it was really heated and it got really late so like on our way home the left over boys
just taking pics i came home at 1:30
THE NEXT DAY ROCKCORPS
which was so fucking fun! i was teamed up with huynh col mai pei bao and i think thats all... OH AND SOME INDIAN GUY
but in all seriousness i had a blast. i felt really into it because i love craft. at first i was hesitant and jealous that i didnt get to do art but once our group and team work started to form i got carried away in huynhs dancing, collins hammering, my drilling, baos sawing and the love reily had for me :)
but like i felt like we made everyone try and have the most fun!
and plus we did it the fastest and i bet out one was the most legit
i would do it again if i could
it was also really cool how osly was there and stuff cause we didnt know they were coming
After we picked up huynh to so el jannah cause we wanted chicken more than rashays and then we sat around ems house having one of the best intimate talks ive had in a long time
i think i came home at 2 at that point
andrew called me at 12 telling me that we were gyming at 1
wtf i thought and i was like fuck it what the hell so michael, e drew and i decided to pump our guns
the problem is a girls workout it like 1h and the boys took 2 so i was dead by the end of the day
the really cool thing about the girls treadmils are that we have a usb port and ipod port and an earplug thing not to mention that you can watch tv on it
i laughed out loud when erky and perky came on and it was a gyming episode hahahah
i was using the machines on high and i want my legs to look like with when im standing
close to a thigh gap but not too much hahah yeah!
after gym i was so desperate not to go home i even had a shower in huynhs house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kenny had a get together so we went and i met up with a newly formulated grouP "huynhs first time" hhahahah this is up mimicking the russian winter Olympics
i got home 12, earliest yet
oh but wait! tonight i came home at 10:30!! my mum lookd at me with surpirsed
i had work today and wells afterward we hung out with my co-worker Sam
hes really neat and we over-stayed out welcome with was probs typical of me ahahahaha
he ordered pizza and his mum is really cute
so like
tomorrow i have work (technically today) and who knows what time ill be home tonight
this is the part where im worried. i cannot be bothered going to my first lectures cause they are all intros and my timetable is so shit i have to go to uni for 3 days for one lecture
ugh and my room isnt tidy and i am not prepared at all for uni
and in reality i dont care
i just want to be with my friends
and i am so scared that i am not taking myself seriously
i need a slap in the face
some rest
and time alone in my house
but i cant
i makes me go insane
and i feel like im missing things
kill me already@@!!!!
“I’m the jealous type, you know why? Because remember, we started out as ” just friends” too”
| — | Frank Ocean |
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