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its midnight

its technically midnight right now

and all i can think of right now is this video

ive been a little sick in the head lately, like really stuck

very blurry vision and a lot of crying and just secluding myself

then i watch Natalia lafourcade and i feel like her voice physically pulled me our of my rut

i guess it was a depression rut, i felt very, what is the point of everything if i just die right now blah blah everything means nothing

that was going through my mind, i dont know when it stared, but it really sunk into my core

and i knew it was happening, the whole depression thing but it was really hard to shake off

i knew i needed inspiration, i needed something to give me heart eyes and make me feel like it was ok, but i couldnt find it and nothing cheered me up

maybe its because im another year older

who knows. but im content now

everything will be ok everything feels ok right now

im planning to make a blog post about experiences that make me happy so i hope it cheers me up

maybe ill make another blog ?

bye